I just realised I was rambling on.
.. so I'll get back to the point. I rang the 0845 number, they gave me crappy information about cold and flu, then said we're only taking urgent calls, we can arrange to call you back in 4 hours. I was ringing from a mobile
and was listening to 3 minutes of a pre recorded message then it started ringing and I was put on
some sort of hold. 5 minutes I waited


I don't even know why I tried
calling, I wouldnt know what to say without feeling like an idiot. I don't want to talk. I took my dog out the other day and people stopped to pet him, which irritated me

i wanted to walk alone and make sense of my head, not
make small talk.